Haven't wrote in a decade. Broke up with my ex of 8 years in February and wrote the first verse. Not supposed to be anything technical but wanted to put my heart into it a bit and get some shit off my chest. Just wrote the second verse as a sort of update to the first, now 10 months later.
JUST FRIENDS
I was done with this, I’m too busy to write
No motivation for creation when I think I’m alrigh,
Topical battles and open mics, they all lay in the past
I started dropping the pen when I was taking your hand
It’s embarrassing, my catalogue of each emotional verse
Yet you gave me the confidence to come and show you my work
We set off like fireworks, an amazing ascent
Yet they explode and all the smoke dissipates at the end
But that’s not the reason I’m once again taking the pen
It’s my stressing at the question if you’re staying my friend
Our relationship was aging quick and was dead for years
Yet on my own, I’m alone and I’m shedding tears
It’s not the thought of you making plans with some nameless man
If someone made you happy, I’d want to shake his hand
It was me who sat us down to start the end of us
Yet I never understood how important that our friendship was
We sat in different rooms for years, I don’t even regret it
Yet all I want in my life now is to send you a message
You want to progress, you need space and to move on in time
But I don’t want to imagine a path without you in my life
Every member of my family is just as self-obsessed
If I could send a text, you could help the mess
I suppose if I reflect on myself, I’m just like them too
Cause what is right for me might not be right for you
I don’t need a girlfriend and I want nothing romantic
I want my best friend back, I want someone to hang with
I don’t want to take your hand or for us to lay in bed
But I’d give everything I’ve got for you to stay my friend
JUST STRANGERS
I just read the piece I wrote at the start of the year
And honestly some of the words are now harder to hear
I was hurting, the pain remained and I was living it still
But now all I’m feeling when I read it is I’m riddled with guilt
I was truthful, our friendship was something that I honestly treasured
Now I leave you on read and it’s not getting better
You felt like my other half for such a portion of my life
Now that time has passed, I’ve learned to know that wasn’t right
When I left, I thought there was part of me that I was leaving at the door
But being brutally honest I just don’t need you anymore
The thought of losing half of my life was really something that killed me
Yet on my own I know that without you I’m still me
I didn’t want to ditch you and I wish I could say
I have a path I must follow and in a different way
I met someone new and as it’s coming to light
I’m more confident each day that she’s the love of my life
So now I think of all those things I’ve now regretfully said
That I’ve broken in growing beyond a friend of my ex
I can’t be at your wedding, or hear your stories from bumble
I won’t meet your first child, they’ll never know me as uncle
I cherish what we did together and I have to say
Without you I wouldn’t be who I am today
Alas, I must sever the cord and end the ties
And apologize for the lie that we’d be friends for life
I hope you move on to have children and marriages
I hope you move on to find yourself and have every happiness
If religion is real and it turns out heaven awaits
I look forwarding to hearing about the rest of your days
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