My Life with Him
So What, I can’t live without his soft kiss,
At least in my life I have heavenly bliss,
I can’t wait to lay in his arms at night,
I can’t stand it when we begin to fight,
But it’s worth it when I see his smile,
It really takes you back a whole damn mile,
When I see his smile…………………
…………………………….I die inside,
Because I know Ill always have him by my side,
I know that if I ever need him for anything at all,
He’ll be there for me at all costs ………………
………………………I won’t even need to call,
So what he doesn’t like my friends that much?
But I don’t like his friends so he…………
…………Closed down his facebook and such,
I know that I haven’t been there for him,
And I hate that……I made our world dim,
He can’t trust me and it’s my fault,
Our trust used to be like a solid vault,
But I fucked that up like everything else,
Sometimes I feel as small as a mouse,
Because I don’t do things I should,
I know what he wants but to do it
…………………I only wish I could,
I don’t think before I act much lately,
And for that his whole fam hates me,
I’ve made your life turn to complete shit,
I just wish I could try and fix it,
I just want him to know that I love him,
And I can’t even live without him,
He’s the reason I have a home,
He’s the reason I used to sit by the phone,
He’s the reason I am who I am today,
He’s the reason I say what I say,
He’s taught me not to take shit anymore,
Just say what’s on my mind………………
………………Not block it behind a door,
I’ve never told him how much I appreciate it,
I just bitch and nag about how much I hate it,
Not that he’s done these things though,
Just about certain things that irritate me so,
I said things about the way he’s treated me,
But now that I look at it…………………
He was really trying to protect me,
I just wish I could tell him to his face,
How much he means to me in any case,
I love his looks but his personality says it all,
It makes your heart crash and fall,
Every lil’ thing about him is just wow,
Then I think about everything I’ve done……
…………….And I think to myself how?
How could I have treated him like this?
And to this day he still wants my kiss?
I put myself before him all the time like wow,
I was so stupid and he still wants me around how?
I guess this is to tell him…………………
How much he’s helped me out with it all,
And I’m ready to be there for what ever……
Even if to get up we need to fall,
He’s put me ahead of everything for what?
For me to be a bitch and call her a slut,
She hasn’t done anything to me,
Its just how conceited I was being,
I understand everything now…
I just hope it not too late for him to see that.