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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
Like… I don’t really like your dad
Don’t let me find out pacs money funded my torture!
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
Tied
They on my body but they not my God
Figure it out figure it out - I fucking did and all it left me was scarred
They not gonna stop until they get the answer they want
And I ain’t living sick for no man especially A dope head who front
Or the female cunt that only Jesus would want
My man? Now he just feel so good and fit like a glove
Peace, comfort, and trust
And all the other shit that bad girls gone good dream of
His pharmone aura
Got me begging - ahora
But…
My brain is officially out of order
And every other excuse they made so I couldn’t get a sip of water
Please believe me… I never knew I had a daughter
Mental health is real
I need sleep to heal
Poke tapped and prodded but nobody tell me what’s real
And I still don’t know how i feel
I just don’t want to beg or make light of a hater
Just wondering wtf is all the hate for?
pussy ass bitch just a low level whore
I suffer for no man, no one never again, and no gun never no more!
Love 2/4
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
Nailed it today at school and got me a new client! Amen lol
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
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Tired of everyone fucking with my head
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And not telling me what’s going on
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Yeah I’m pretty sure my ex help them now too
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Wish he knew he better than that but I tried
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I feel like going on strike… it’s too hard but I can’t do that to my mom and need my own money
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I have no friends… did they do that so I’d be desperate and go to him? HELL NO HE DISGUSTS ME
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They believe their own lies and I wouldn’t go to him even if pac asked me himself to
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I prefer to die then have to… why would I have to? Yeah right
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Him and my old friends just swear they tricked me too… NOPE
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I refuse to live in their sick weird world and they won’t let me get back to mine
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You have them on conspiracy, attempted murder, negligent homicide, accessory to rape after the fact, false reporting… WHAT THE FUCK IS THE PROBLEM?!?!
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How the hell do I get them away from me and out of my flesh
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Does anyone even realize that my life and dreams are OVER because of them and this
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They paying people to hurt me but expect my mom to support me when they make me this sick
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They paying people to cover it up yet I don’t even have my own money and haven’t in a DECADE
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Everytime I try to get back up I get a spirit infection and forced to share my body tapping and tracing and shit which I really can’t stand
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On top of my mental illness which they refuse to give me disability for too
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What’s going on and who is running this shit? My dad chose to die instead of telling me and I want to know what the fuck is going on
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It takes 3-5 hours to fall asleep cause they won’t stop talking or asking questions or talking and waking me up as soon as I do fall asleep
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The pain, the sleepwalking, the sick shit, the mentally abusive shit - why don’t anyone help or tell me and make them stop?
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They threw sick shit during sex to get me off him and I think a spell too cause it always go opposite and I dont like him for real anymore - hate and iw is getting stronger
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They have done this to every relationship I hav ever had and I wanr to know who and why even though I’m sure it was the fraud them bitches set me up with on 4th of July
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Idgaf who your brother is LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE
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They know that, they ALL know I’m not like that - just like pac been trying to tell you all. I WANT MY OWN FUCKING MONEY
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Why are they allowed to put THEIR SINS IN MY BODY?
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Is there any way to fix and prove that cause I’m tired of strangers coming up to me to say if I was you I’d kill myslelf
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Please I didn’t do shit and lived my life to answer to God the best I can
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Why won’t anybody help me or fix it?
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If I tell my mom they are sleeping me and robbing me again I go back to mental HELLLLL NOOOOO
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It’s not even my religion or culutire so HOW?
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Isn’t there a way to prove who and fix it?
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And the voices… I deal with the medical ones too much for their extra too
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I was sleeping and kept waking up because I kept feeling that gross nasty bitch in my body for some reason
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Them and the fraud is why it’s gone wrong all these years and made me thus sick and refuse to stop or go away
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I’ve told him no afleazt 3-4x
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I didn’t give them my body either though and it’s gross
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Feels like bestealiry gross the growls in my stomach and such
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I’ve told him no afleazt 3-4x
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Iwww his thumb too (throw up)
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They’re trying to make my thiumbs like that too… SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME AND FIX IT
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Please fix my thumbs and body
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That’s why every time I start to lose weight I get fatter again STOP
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Why are they allowed to change my body that my god gave to me and not them
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They didn’t even ask perrmossion
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They’re forcing me to share my body… typing for me and everything to that I always have to fix… NO… ITS MY BODY AND I DONT WABT TO SHARE WITH THEM OR LIVE LIKE THIS
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I hear them on my roof and I’m mentally ill dealing with real voices that make me sick
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LEAVE ME ALONE I DONT HAVE TO BR THIS SICK
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Yes they do know what I’ve been thru and stalked me and tricked my friends and family since 97
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Maybe 96 when my besties got mad at me and wouldn’t tell me why
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I refuse to be disrespected in order to find out wtf is going on
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They ruined another relationship as soon as we started building again by making me sick and lying to my bf
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IM MENTALLY FYCKING ILL AND DONT KNOW HOW TO GET THEM OUT OF ME OR STOP - I HAVE ZERO DEFENSE IN MU OWN FLESH
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You can’t change my culture body and religion just cause you want what? Money? Cause I don’t have none
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I wouldn’t be with you for a trillion dollars
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I hear your disgusting voice shut up and get off my roof and stop stalking me… I don’t even barely know you!!! We never even dated!!!!!
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You pretended to be pac
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Why? wtf do you really want?
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And let me guess… she pretended to be me?
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Is that why everybody hates and disrespects me or why I got judged and dropped after the gang rape you guys knew would happen if you went a second round? But nah you went again and pac u really think they went AGAIN NOW TOO
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I really don’t know what’s worse then getting assaulted up and down the east coast with nobody helping or believing
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But they went again
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I’m not into witch craft and have no clue how to fix me or make them stop
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Please make them stop changing the way I walk or talk case I’m good and better how I was… who knows how to fix this and me?
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I can’t stand it I can’t stand feeling like this
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I can’t stand their world either
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
I’ve been shaking since my relationship went to a point of no return… that’s means reeper is with me so I feel safe… fucking try it
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They brought back my ashtray too
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But never the money they steal or credit cards too
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They refuse to take no for an answer - this isn’t my religion and I refuse it to be… GET THE FUCK OUT OF ME
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STOP FUCKING STALKING ME TOO!!!! I WASNT THE FUCKING STALKER EITHER AND YOU KNEW THIS
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Someone was coming in and out my house when me and my ex broke up in like 2004 - there was eucalyptus from my plant on the lawn and assumed it was a dirty cop
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So you saw all the shit go down and never helped either - I ALWAYS LIVED MY LIFE LIKE SOMEOJE WAS WATCHING CAUSE MY DAD WAS BEING BLACK NAILED TOO
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WTF IS THE PROBLEM
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Then I relapsed and saw the dissapoint in the yankee gas guys face who was parked in front of my house - again why sweat it thought they’d realize I went straight and would go away
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The worst I ever did was sniff cocaine
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Oh boy you surround me with dope heads but boy that will never be me
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INDIDNT DO SHIT AND YOU KNOW JT
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Why do they think they can force me to change my religion? NOOOOOOOO
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GET OUT OF AND OFF ME!!!!!
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I don’t care if you had the fountain if youth get off me you make me sick even more then you already did prior making my mental illness worse on purpose
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It’s feels FUCKING DISGUSTING
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Sorry I don’t fuck with strangers in the shade or trust them… I’m an eye to eye bitch… I don’t listen to or entertain the voices in my head either
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I don’t have to be this sick if they just leave me and my body alone
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My old friends was fucking selling my free will and I’m just trying to figure out how they fucking got it to begin with
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Since 2001 caught a second when she was there and I walked in and we kissed in front of her and ah hah again on 2012 or 2013 - don’t I get a say in your marriage ceremony’s?
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How the fuck did them socio bitches get my free will to even begin with?
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Why does everybody think it’s ok to do to me?
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
That’s their culture and religion not mine please get them off of and out of me
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They were trying to do the shit for me
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The second I typed die to myself I ran out of work crying cause I knew they were back and sure enough here comes oh boy who allegedly saw me on the highway which is impossible - he would’ve thought I still lived in NC but nah he saw me in a car he never see not my style in a city I don’t live in with my hair curly which is soooo rare
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THATS why the only time the wouldn’t do the sick shit is when I was with my boy too
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Yes you have the phone convo where u told her I was too?
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I told her*
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I’m actually glad you told them I was talking about you then made me… die slow bitch
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The one where she said she lived in ct when they did that…
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Check the phone bills of when she was at court when I stole the car… we weren’t friends for 3 years prior - please find ONE phone call we had - as I just typed treason to my fucking self
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She called and apologized a couple weeks later and I thought she grew up and forgave her
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Thought I was hallucinating but that’s why I was going off on the cop
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I want them to throw their trash some where else then me
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They give my parents room the fucking finger every time I walk by… THAT ISNT ME
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I just told you I don’t fuck with strangers in the shade GET OFF MY BODY UNTIL I CHOOSE WHO
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Cause I trusted it was god before and they sexually and physically tortured me
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Fucking with me doing all that miraculous shit GO HEAL JAYME
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I’m trying to make money and best wishes for people and they stronger on the hate shit? HOW?
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If this bitch don’t stop and get out my fucking body u can’t go to school… got stuffed on tip tonight probably cause she saw her and not me
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I hate your third world shit and want to go back to my own religion
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All she had to do was get a cleansing - I know why my psychic told her that now… but no she rather throw her trash and blame me. WHAT DOES MY LIFE OR DREAM EVEN HAVE TO DO WITH YOU?
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I’m not a roach and able to admit reality to myself - how am I in a sess pool with them? Them over me too?
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Because the bitch that socio and can’t admit fault in herself… she’s too great and good
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And you guys so fucking stupid to believe them I get audited twice on taxes… you ever even bother to check theirs?
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Now I know why I tripped over her waking out my bed room when we were roommates - what did she do or write that was allegedly me?
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BITCH I HAVE A FUCKING DAUGHTER TO GET TO… if you knew that IM GOING BALLISTIC
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Cause last time we talked she laughed and said she was with her family and hung up… that was 10+ years ago and we weren’t even fighting
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I guess just like fat hoy they get paid and then I’m gone
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EVERYONE knows what’s going on but me and they won’t tell me
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NOBODY WILL FUCKING TELL ME WHATS GOING ON
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
Embarrassing? Fucking embarrassing? YOU DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT BEING EMBARRADED
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How about a teenager lifting your shirt up when you gaining pounds by the day showing her friend, touching my belly while laughing and running? How did the twisted bitch know I match my underwear? How about your own bf laughing with a rapist about my hair
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I’m screaming rape everywhere cause I’m coming back to and everyone knew that too but again nobody tells me that
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Looking at me, touching me and worse, taking pictures
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I can go on for years about humiliation
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance
My mom made me feel better… I told her how they robbed me and took my ashtray then put it back 2 days later and she busted out laughing
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I hate my aunt… they should do it to her and tell us then how to cope
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Is he going to start raping me again?
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I think it’s a psych
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Idky I just don’t want to lay down
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I’m a miss school today… they do it and knock me down everytime that easy
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Why won’t anybody help me and make them leave me alone?
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My step dad was being cool as fuck too and gave me a drink so I can try to sleep but idky I don’t want to
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I kept waking up this morning because it’s so icky when h feel like her instead of me
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That’s what made me so sick today and it’s not over or stopping
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Boyfriend gone… here they go again… I told my mom if it’s some rich man I’m gonna ice pick him on the police station lawn and made her promise to visit me n jail
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That’s what made me so sick today and it’s not over or stopping
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I think it’s a psych I know it’s not pac…I think they so mad cause I keep going to pac
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Like… I AM insane I AM going to do the same thing… but why are you exempt? You’re the one going rounds doing it again and again…isn’t that the same thing too?
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Expecting different results
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Nah I can’t be with no mother fucker that wants me in a hoop d and cheap
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I bet you he old as fuck too
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Movie suggestion: French Exit
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They fucking with my money again and won’t let me charge on my card
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As much as I hallucinate and see him…
I’m willing to take that chance